Finally got a chance to watch Bully and I’m sitting here in tears with m heart in my stomach. This is bringing up so many memories of my own childhood and how I wish this documentary was presented back then. It breaks my heart that children can stay so quiet about all of this until one day they just break. This post’s for all of those who think it won’t get better: I swear to you my most honest of promises that it does. It really honestly does. The cruelest people in this world are children. There’s no denying that. But it’ll get to a point where you leave that school and surround yourself with people who won’t sink that low, who really will genuinely care about you. I can guarantee that so many of you will read this and scoff, convinced that life will always be shit. Take it from the girl who was constantly insulted, threatened and harassed, the girl who ate lunch in the bathroom multiple times, the girl who now turned her life around to focus her studies on why people do the things they do so she can try to make a difference for the next generation: it does get better. As long as you’re willing to fight for it. Please don’t give up like so many have. Don’t let them win.
Probably shouldn’t have agreed to babysit until past 11 tonight when I’ve been going nonstop since 7am. Onto my third coffee of the day.
If you’re not sure what you want to come from it, I would just enjoy the time you spend with her now as best friends and see how it unfolds. If she doesn’t like girls, there’s not much you can do to change that. How long have you guys been friends? How long have you had a thing for her?
I really need to stop being out until almost 2am when I have to get up before 7am. I feel like ass. Work until 5. Then sleeping forever.
If you don’t want a relationship, why do you feel pressured to tell her right now that you have feelings for her? What makes you say you’re in love with her over just having a thing for her?
Then change. Figure out what it is that’s triggering you to explode so unnecessarily at him. Work on it with him. How does he typically react when you blow up?
Then I offer you the exact same questions.
“I just want you to know the DCYF is doing their surprise visit today. Just being your wonderful, sweet, loving self and all will be fine.”
The text I got from my boss before I walked in. Guess I’m doing something right.
These kids might be complete terrors sometimes, but it always makes my heart melt when they hug me and tell me they don’t want me to leave because they love me.
What do you mean by chemistry? If you’re not attracted to girls, what specifically has you romantically attracted to her? Does she like girls? What exactly would you want to ideally come from you telling her you have feelings for her?
Have to go to the police station to get fingerprinted today. I told my boss I wouldn’t be around until about noon. She told me last night to come in for noon. Then she changed it to 2. Now she’s telling me to come in for 1130 because it “won’t take that long” to get my stuff done. It’s almost 11 and I haven’t even been seen yet. And yet I’m the one who’s going to look incompetent if I’m not at work on time. Frustrating.
Yeah. You can be civil without being flirty. Just get through the weekend and take it from there.